September 23, 2010

Halloween Handiwork

I was in the Halloween spirit today (pardon the pun).
I mean, come on. It's the first official day of fall!
So what did I do about it??
Made crafty things!

First, I took an old frame and spray painted it black. Then I sized some scrapbook paper to fit and added some fun words in Halloween stickers (had some, purchased some 50% off) randomly. Added the purple ribbon that I already owned to hang it with, and ta-dah!!
(I really need a camera. My phone doesn't do these justice!)

I purchased a few packs of pumpkin spice votive candles ($1 per pack of 8!), festive ribbon (50% off), and votive vases (99 cents each). I used some of the stickers that I bought for my frame to add some character.

Then, I bought the orange stem (50% off) and used my Spanish moss to finish my arrangement that I started a long time ago. So festive and cute! :)

That's not all, but definitely the cream of the crop.
Thank goodness for holiday inspiration!

September 16, 2010


I really enjoy Tuesdays and Thursdays. The only bad thing about them is that I know I have 8:00am classes the next day.
I am sitting here (actually laying stomach down on the floor, to be exact) eating homemade toasted whole wheat bread with homemade strawberry jam before I type something for school. And I did not make the bread (stepmom) OR the jam (old roomie). I'm not holding out fantastic recipes on anyone. I should start working.

However, I can't get my dream out of my head.

My entire life, I have wanted to be a stay at home mom. I knew this at a very young age. The first time I remember dwelling on my future was probably in 3rd grade when my mom, brother and I lived in our apartment in Laguna Niguel, CA. There was no doubt. I was going to be a mom one day, and that's all I really wanted to do. Sure, I had the random, "I want to be a rock star!" or "I want to be an actress!" phases every once in a while, but I always wanted to be a mom, too. It was the only consistant job desire. While growing up, I knew that I would have to have a career eventually, because I would have to go to college. I decided that I wanted to be a kindergarten teacher. But this was only because I knew I had to have a job.

Now, I don't know why, but I hardly ever remember my dreams. I don't really have a problem with that, either. However, I seem to remember my dream every time it has something to do with marriage and/or babies. Before I dated Patrick, I had several dreams saying that I knew I was supposed to marry him. I remember two very distinctly. One of them was a dream about us having a baby together after we were married. We were sitting in the den of his parent's house with his family and my family, and I had a beautiful chubby baby with red hair in my arms. The dream flashed forward to a few years later, where in the backyard, Patrick was playing with a little 2-3 year old girl. She had a full head of red, bouncy curls - just like her daddy.

These were all fine, because I knew I wasn't even close to that time period in my life. We started dating when I was 18, afterall. But now that we are married, that dream could so very easily become reality.
And it scares the crap out of me.

In my dream last night, I was alone and I guess I didn't know that I was pregnant, because out of nowhere I started going into minor labor and POP! out came a baby girl. Uhhh say what?! I didn't know? Seriously? The "labor" was so easy that it is obvious it was a dream, but still. The baby girl didn't have red hair that I remember, but she was stinking cute. I had to send picture messages to all of my friends and family to tell them that I just had a baby. Talk about strange. When I woke up, I actually remembered my dream for the most part.

I still want to be a housewife and mother more than any career out there. No doubt about it. However, I know that it can't happen right now, and I don't have any desire for it to (okay, maybe if I am being honest, there is a teeeeeeny desire, but I shouldn't). We are so poor that it's not even funny. Raising children costs a lot of money - I know this. I don't want to live in an apartment and raise our kids with nothing to eat, sending them to a babysitter because both of us have to work full time to make ends meet. That was the biggest part of my childhood that I remember (without the dad in the picture), and my children deserve better.

And I want so desperately to feel like I have accomplished something in my life before starting a family, aka getting my degree in Elementary Education. I know I don't want a job, but I want to be able to say to my children that I finished college. That I was smart enough and dedicated enough to go back for the 3rd time and pay for it on my own.

I have no idea why I am babbling on and on about this. Maybe I just need to get it out of my head.

My sweet and silly kitty will be enough of a baby for right now.

September 14, 2010


"Just because she has something to add to a discussion doesn't mean she should."
- Jessica Darling, Perfect Fifths

I should be reminded of this from time to time.

Sometimes (well, maybe a lot of the time), things just fly out of my mouth before I think about how someone that is not inside my brain might take it.
This is a problem.
I have unintentionally hurt so many people by my words. Most of the time, those wounded are the people that I cherish and respect the most.
Why do I do this?? I don't really know the answer. But I believe that, in part, I am subconsciously checking to see if people are actually listening to me. I am realizing more as time goes on that I have an issue about not being heard by those around me. It is so so so so stupid. And I don't mean to do it. However, I clearly have issues.

I know better. I know that I am supposed to hold my tongue. I guess I am figuring out, all over again, that this doesn't only apply when I am speaking out of anger or hate. Humor can also cause a lot of damage. The little things that I say matter, too.

Live and learn.

September 12, 2010


Tonight, I made the blackberry cobbler.
Patrick and I also hung up the makeshift mantle and sconce.

Blackberry Cobbler - Overall, it was very tasty. This was my first time to ever make a cobbler, and I have only made one homemade pie in my life. Weird, because I LOVE to bake. I guess my specialty is cookies. Anyway, there were a few things I will do differently on my next cobbler. First, there will be fewer berries. Second, the crust on top will be thinner. Third, I will not rush. I hurried through the crust because I wanted to be finished, and it turned out a little sloppy. To the perfectionist in me, well, that's just not okay.
The berries were HUGE and way juicy. I didn't know that my cobbler would be literally swimming in blackberry juice. In one of the pictures below, it shows a bowl of juice that I spooned out, yet it was still drowning. Crazy good berries, though!

Makeshift Mantle & Sconce - The "mantle" below is made of two shelves that Patrick had in his old room at his parent's house. Because he had so many heavy books on them, the wood is a little warped. But overall, it turned out well. The sconce, as we all know, is my favorite part! I still LOVE how it turned out. And fyi, the pictures in the picture (hmm... that sounds weird) are not staying. They are just there to fill up space for the moment.

(Again, these are from my camera phone. Sorry.)

The finished blackberry cobbler.

A drowning cobbler.

Complete satisfaction in my makeshift mantle and crafty floral arrangement.

Horray! I believe that today's adventures were a success.

P.S. - My cat is playing fetch as we speak. Patrick is throwing a crumbled up receipt, and then Chloe runs, plays with it, picks it up in her mouth, and brings it back to him. Absolutely hilarious! And who says that cats aren't as fun as dogs?!

September 11, 2010


Patrick and I went to the Farmer's Market this morning. We were able to score some pretty great corn, green beans, tomatoes, and a TON of huge juicy blackberries! I am making a blackberry cobbler tomorrow. And I am PUMPED.

Today was a crafty day with two of my favorite girls. It went really well! I have some very talented friends. They are a ton of fun, too. :)
However, I have had the block project in my brain for a few years and was determined to do it today. But Hobby Lobby didn't have what I needed! I felt like a 4 year old about to throw a fit, because I am so ready to do it.

ANYWAY. Here is what I did manage to accomplish:

The sconce is the one mentioned in my previous post; a wedding gift, purchased from Southern Living.
(Also, this is a picture from my phone. Obviously. No real camera anymore.)

I am ridiculously proud of this. Honestly, it turned out WAY better than I thought it would! I will be changing the foliage with the seasons, but I can keep this up until the day after Thanksgiving! That is, like, 2 1/2 months away!
I know, I know, it's leaning up against the wall. We are putting it above the fireplace, but we are putting up a makeshift mantle out of shelves first. I will post a picture when the whole look is finished.

Tomorrow, hopefully the blackberry cobbler.

September 9, 2010


An absolutely ridiculous idea has been hoovering in my brain for the past few weeks.

I want to make a quilt out of my old cheerleading and high school tshirts.
I want to make it myself.
I want to hand stitch the entire thing.
Am I crazy? Probably. But I don't really care.

The book that I am reading is ironic when I mention that silly idea.
Sarah's Quilt, by Nancy E. Turner

It is the sequel to my favorite book in the whole wide world:
These is my Words, by Nancy E. Turner
Not long ago, I asked some friends the question, "If you could read ONE book for the rest of your life (excluding the Bible), which would it be?"
Eventually, I had to answer the question myself.
This book was my answer.

It is a fictional diary based on the real life of Sarah Agnes Prine.
And it is fabulous.
My stepmother recommended this book to me a long time ago. The first time that I read it several years ago, it took a while for me to get into the story. However, I fell in love. I reread the book a few weeks ago, and it sealed the deal for me. This is my all-time favorite book.
If you enjoy historical fiction, I strongly encourage you to read it.

This post has been completely random. Very similar to my thought process today.
My apologies. :)

September 8, 2010


My grandparents are awesome.
Both of my grandmothers text me from their cell phones.
One of them is on facebook. The same grandmother that sent me a mix cd for my birthday (recieved a few months late through a few sets of hands, thanks to our craptastic postal service).

A MIX CD. How awesome is that?! But it gets better.
The cd is entitled "Wild and Crazy Music of the 50's".
What I love so much about it is, not only the content, but the fact that my grandma lived through that time period. The music wouldn't be considered crazy now, but I am sure it was then. She was around when that music came out. Today, Lady Gaga (yuck), Beyonce, Katy Perry, other various artists, can be put into that category of new "wild and crazy music", the same category as artists like Elvis, Jerry Lee Lewis, Louis Armstrong, Bill Haley and His Comets back in their hay-day.

Our world today seems pretty crazy to me, but I can't imagine how it would look if I had been born before the late 80's. It's a weird thought. Every decade in the 1900's seems to have a theme. In my eyes, each decade has their "romantic" qualities about them. I say that I would have loved to live through each of those time periods. But the fact is that there has been so much change in the past 100 years, and I am sure that it was difficult for each generation to deal with the monumental changes that happened so quickly. Some were easier than others, but changes nonetheless.

It makes me wonder, what changes will happen from 2010 to 2020??
Thanks for making me dance and think, Grandma. :)

September 7, 2010


"I could easily forgive his pride,
if he had not mortified mine."
- Pride and Prejudice

This says so much.
I am so forgiving, until I feel like a fool.
Then it's down the drain.
Something I definitely need to work on.

September 4, 2010


"Random acts of kindness make the world go 'round."
- Michael Jonathan McIver

I love you, uncle Michael.
Happy birthday.
Miss you.

September 3, 2010


OH MY GOODNESS. The weather was PERFECT today.
All day long, this is what I was thinking...

Autumn is coming!!!!
And all I could see in my head were these...

Mmmmm..... apple cider!               My favorite pumpkin patch.

Beautiful trees!                                 A silly husband.

My husband and I have a few traditions.
Going to the pumpkin patch is one of them.
As you can see, he has a great sense of humor.

Tonight is a celebration of my best friend's birthday.
Tomorrow is a beautiful wedding for two beautiful people.
Tomorrow night is a trip to Dallas to visit mi familia.

Happy Labor Day weekend!

September 2, 2010


Happy 23rd birthday, my nub!!

My bestest friend's birthday is today.
(I know, we have a very odd name for each other. This has indeed been brought to my attention many times.)

The two of us last year.
Awaiting our loves.

I hope your birthday is fabulous, dearest friend!! You have blessed my life in so many ways. Here's to another beautiful year!

"I guess we'll never know exactly where this river's gonna flow..."

September 1, 2010


Suddenly I see.....

I feel like this is a statement that I could use every day.
Because I learn something new

Maybe that is the whole reason I started this blog, to have a place that I can tell of the things that I am learning. Without feeling like I am boring my friends and family with the silly things I should have learned by now.

Here's to a new adventure. :)